Looking back on things over the past couple of years have been kinda crazy. I am married to the love of my life. He is a private person and doesn't like personal stuff put in public. Guess it is his image.
I have been in a depression for a long time and have been trying to get out for awhile. I work a full time job and my jewelry store online. I get no support. I feel alone most of the time and feel like I just exist. I love what I am doing with my jewelry and wish I could do it full time. Most people love my stuff. During all of this, I have let myself go due to feeling neglected.
Today I start my Body by Vi challenge. It is time I get myself back. I want positive things in my life. To be healthy, happy, not feel neglected, to feel loved, appreciated, successful. I want everything and feel that I am worthy to obtain it. The focus has been on my husband's cancer, children and the house, oh and my full time job. I worked hard and was cast aside. I don't want to sound selfish but what about me???? I feel like a robot in their world.
I have hopes and dreams and felt like I could never per-sue them because of the things going on in my life. Today is my time and if the people in my life can't support me after everything I have done for them, so be it. I am going to be 47 in Jan. My life has always been of service to others. I was a good daughter, wife and mother, friend, worker. It is time for me to be selfish for me. If I don't, I feel I wont exist anymore, I want more out of life.
Sorry for the down post, it is not intentional, just been building for years.
So I will be posting stuff about my jewelry and also my progress on my V challenge. I am not brave enough to post before pics just yet.
Hope you all have a blessed day
Kris
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